I seriously think my wife is some sort of narcissistic mind game playing... Well you get the point. She is always saying that I'm mentally abusive and I play mind games all the while she's doing the things she says that I'm doing. Part of me wants to just embarrass her ass, but I've been warned that may hurt our relationship. So I'm going to start drinking. Maybe being drunk will help me get through this marriage(my 4th, her 2nd) without killing myself. I do believe that I suffer from major depression. Me dying is not that far off in my mind. Either way. To the reason that I'm here and not on facebook any more. I made a post with the picture below and the following caption... "No one wants me to go back to this guy... But they keep pushing."
Now this has caused some people to want to ask questions about if I'm okay. Well yes mutha fucka I'm fine if I get left the fuck alone. How about this for a thought, If you're fucking concerned about my well being ask me not someone else.
So to what has me feeling like I need to decrease my bark and just start biting mutha fuckas goes as follows. Yesterday my wife and I were out doing home inspections. At one of the houses the young guy that is the neighbor to the house we were going to decided that he wanted to pull a gun on my wife and I. Now this was compounded by the fact that she(my wife) was talking shit to the guy while he had a gun in my face. I ask her to leave she said that we can do what we came there for since the guy walked away. Not knowing that his friend was asking what we had in our car. BTW I was unarmed. So I asked her if she was stupid. Seemed like a reasonable question at the time. I now know that I can't ask her if she's stupid. I also got pissed because she reacted as if I were some kind of punk ass dude. Now if I was armed and shot the kid she would be saying I over reacted, but I'm a punk for wanting to put distance between us and the guys with the guns. So I posted my thoughts and feelings on her facebook page as her. I know right.... big fuck up. Yup very big. So as of late this is all I've been getting from my overly critical wife, I'm a screw up... I'm a bitch because I express my feelings about things instead of burring them like I used to... I'm abusive because some days I want to eat a bullet... She's never wrong and if I happen to prove her wrong her apology is followed by telling me how I fucked up in the past.... sheesh!!! So since I can't vent in person to her about my frustrations....(Sounds like abuse) I can't vent on social media because people will see(Sounds like abuse) then I will vent here on IN2V. This may just keep me from putting on a suicide vest and blowing up in traffic on 285. That was a joke with no seriousness in it. Seriously though not venting for me has been nothing but dangerous for me. Without an outlet I'll explode oe implode. Well welcome to I Need to Vent.
Now this has caused some people to want to ask questions about if I'm okay. Well yes mutha fucka I'm fine if I get left the fuck alone. How about this for a thought, If you're fucking concerned about my well being ask me not someone else.
So to what has me feeling like I need to decrease my bark and just start biting mutha fuckas goes as follows. Yesterday my wife and I were out doing home inspections. At one of the houses the young guy that is the neighbor to the house we were going to decided that he wanted to pull a gun on my wife and I. Now this was compounded by the fact that she(my wife) was talking shit to the guy while he had a gun in my face. I ask her to leave she said that we can do what we came there for since the guy walked away. Not knowing that his friend was asking what we had in our car. BTW I was unarmed. So I asked her if she was stupid. Seemed like a reasonable question at the time. I now know that I can't ask her if she's stupid. I also got pissed because she reacted as if I were some kind of punk ass dude. Now if I was armed and shot the kid she would be saying I over reacted, but I'm a punk for wanting to put distance between us and the guys with the guns. So I posted my thoughts and feelings on her facebook page as her. I know right.... big fuck up. Yup very big. So as of late this is all I've been getting from my overly critical wife, I'm a screw up... I'm a bitch because I express my feelings about things instead of burring them like I used to... I'm abusive because some days I want to eat a bullet... She's never wrong and if I happen to prove her wrong her apology is followed by telling me how I fucked up in the past.... sheesh!!! So since I can't vent in person to her about my frustrations....(Sounds like abuse) I can't vent on social media because people will see(Sounds like abuse) then I will vent here on IN2V. This may just keep me from putting on a suicide vest and blowing up in traffic on 285. That was a joke with no seriousness in it. Seriously though not venting for me has been nothing but dangerous for me. Without an outlet I'll explode oe implode. Well welcome to I Need to Vent.
